I wish time would slow down

I can not believe that on my next birthday I will be thirty years old. The sad thing is that I am actually starting to feel that old. I can not believe that Brianna is already four and Alivia is already over a year old. I am not sure what is in store for the future. I know that Brian and I would like one more child, but that is in God's hands for now. I know that I will have lose all control when Brianna is old enough to go to school all day long. We are going to be putting her in preschool again this fall. I liked the preschool that she was at last year and I am taking her back there. She only goes twice a week and it is only for two hours. It breaks my heart to even think of the fact that she will no longer be with me all day long in a year from now. I know that I will have Alivia to keep me busy, but with the way that time is going..Alivia will be in school that fast too. I am loving the stage of under four years old. I am scared to think of my children getting any older than that. I work with a few girls that tell me their stories of elementary school and I am just scared to face that fact that I am getting old. Brianna and I went to the park today and I realized that my baby girl is getting so big . She wanted to play that she was the mama and I was the little girl. I have noticed in the last couple of months that she has really grown up. We like to make up stories when it is time to go to sleep. Tonight she stayed the night with Aunt Jen and Grandma cuz I had to work third shift. Tonight when I called over there to say goodnight to her, she made sure that I would make up a story for her over the phone. It was busy and crazy at work, but I managed to tune out to just her. I loved hearing her get the joy out of hearing her mama tell her a make belive story of a little girl that hurt her knee and had to go to the doctor. I loved the fact that she did not want her mama to hang up the phone. I want Brianna to always need me just as I need her. Alivia will be another blog to get started on tomorrow. I am so thankful for my girls. I always dreamed of being a mommy and having my old children. I just forgot the fact that they grow up and learn to do things on their own. That is something that I am not ready for.